Saturday, November 27, 2004

I've been trying to become more aware of how God is affecting the lives around me. This is how I am working on getting closer to totally trusting God. I believe because I know its right, but then there's that question of why its right....then I get the answer: it just is. This I can accept, but somwtimes my mind plays tricks on me. I don't have a very good past of trusting people, especially no one I've ever seen before. So what am I doing: I'm looking for His traces, embraces, and what is being done. This is proving to be most successful, little by little, but still successful.

I read a lesson by Cedar Ridge Community Church, and it just helped me open my eyes a little more. I found it very interesting, and a good refresher.
We went to Scott's grandparents' this thanksgiving.....both of them. My idea....I'm hoping to have just our parents for christmas ..... maybe I can get them all to come here instead! We'll see though cause my mom works christmas, and I'd want to do it on the same day. We'll see.

We took our handy dandy awesome camera, and by the end of the night Thanksgiving, we took about 94 pictures! insane. but we got some great photos.

Asa has a gloworm.....
does anyone else remember these? I thought it was pretty spiffy. I use to have one when I was a kid.....mighty fun. Here's where he fell asleep cuddling it.


Well hope you all had a great week. I'm recovering today heehee.

Saturday, November 20, 2004


I must first come out and apologize for the big pictures......I fixed them so hopefully they look and load better.

Next I must say how much I love Evanescence's newest cd. The lyrics are awesome and mostly because they are real, and I can relate to most. Below is the song "hello" lyrics. It reminds me of my transition from the box-one size fits all-way of doing church into the nice, calm and relaxed-let's get to know and love another and share His word-by being the church. At least it explains it to me my feelings of it all.


playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

if i smile and don't believe
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me i'm not broken
hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't cry

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
hello i'm still here
all that's left of yesterday

Happy Birthday Kiara


Today is my little Kiara's birthday. She turned 3 today.....where oh where does the time go? She's getting so tall and talking so big, on top of getting prettier every day. (not sure if prettier is a word, but if not it is now!)

My grandmother had her thanksgiving dinner this past Thursday. My Aunt Cindy was able to come up from McKinney Texas with her daughter and future son-in-law, and their daughter. It was awesome to see my cousin again. Now that we're older it seems as though we connect a lot more than ever before. I like this. She's a great person, I really hope to get to know her better. Her fiance seems really nice. He's apprenticing to become an electrician.....braver than me..that's for sure! I get week kneed just thinking about trying to fix an outlet! He should be done in ten months.

My gran had the stomach flu so we saw her for seconds at a time, poor girl. She's feeling much better today though. It was a swarm of kids. There were 7 great grandkids there all under the age 10! This is not a big place either and it was raining on top of that! They all had fun though, which is good.

Here is Kiara, Asa, and Mikah cute! This is so far the best picture I have of all three of them.


Sunday, November 14, 2004

What's Goin On

Yesterday was Asa's 3 month birthday. Absolutely amazing how fast time flies. Also very awesome how much he's doing already. He's talking back to us in his cooing, screechy way; he's standing by pushing his legs while I hold him, and he's even starting to hold himself up on his tummy. It sucks because he's our last lil babe, but then again it rocks for the same reasons. Eventually we all can ride those thrill rides,go skate boarding, roller blading, and whatever else.These are things I could do now, but there are so little times I'm without Asa. I still try to give him a bottle of formula everyday so that when the time comes I can get a couple of hours he's okay while I'm gone.

The holidays are coming. Scott's family on both his mother's and dad's side are celebrating thanksgiving on the same day at different times. Yes, I can probably make it to both, but this is a day where I want to not only relax a little, but actually enjoy the people there. This will only feel very rushed, and when you mix that rushed feeling with being on the road 4 hours in one day, you have very cranky kids and a mom that ends up in stressful tears later on. now I just need to decide which side to celebrate with. Inny minny miney moe..... We''l just have to wait and see.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Vaccinated and Good

I took Asa to his doc appointment today. He's not sick, it was just a well baby check-up. Unfortunately he needed some vaccine shots. I have kept quiet about my worries about this subject. I've been informed recently that there is a very similar substance to mercury that is in the shots for preservation. That of course isn't a kind of thing you would want running around in your little baby's blood. So once the doc came in I stormed him with my concerns and questions. Come to find out, due to the rising concern of parents and medical workers, they no longer put it in the majority of vaccines. So I asked about the minority part, he then told me that all I have to do is request that the vaccine to be without, and they'll choose accordingly. Obviously, today I chose the one without. This does comfort me a lot, because I believe in the reason for vaccinating, but I also need to look out for my lil babes all around.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

praying prayerfully

Wow, I just recently realized that my prayer life has doubled very nicely. I find myself praying for my friends and family almost every chance I get. This is an enormous upgrade in my spiritual computer. I find the more I pray for others, the more confidence and trust I find in God. No, I don't see the answered result of my prayers, but I'm comforted while going through them. This just encourages more prayer, which rocks! Now the next step for me is to dig a lot more into scripture. I suck at that. It always seems like everytime I pick up the bible, I all of a sudden need to direct my attention towards the kids. And when they are sleeping, I tend to get really selfish with my quiet time. I hope to fix this very soon. What I may end up doing is just reading and studying the word online.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Ta Da!

Hey I finally remebered I have a fotopage! Duh! Well here it is!

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

REFlection Day

Today is election day...the day where most people cast their votes into a machine so a president can be elected. I didn't vote......I didn't forget to register or anything, I just chose not to. A great many of people would think I'm not doing my part or standing up for what I believe in, but truth be told I am. I don't like how our country's voting system is set up. Not one bit. And this year it was deciding who was the best "actor"....who won your heart with a politician's promise? My brother voted today, and this state's majority lost his vote.....absolutely silly. All I ever hear is about is how everyone needs to vote since they have that right, but I really don't belive my vote wait a does if i choose the right state. I can't say who I would vote for anyways.....yeah I can see what they promise and all, but I can't say I've held that much trust to politicians...they always seem to put too much make-up on a very dirty face...if you catch my drift. I guess that's all about that.