Christmas is Texas

Wow pretty much ishttp://www.blogger.com/img/gl.link.gif all I could say about the blessings that have been thrown at us in this holiday season. On top of that we just really had a great day with wonderful company, and I drank in my pajamas......yeah that was randomly put out there on purpose.I had refused to get out pf my pajama pants, just because they were SOOOOOOO comfortable. Also we were gifted a bottle of wine, and had one ourselves. I haven't drank that much in quite awhile, but that day one of those bottles I claimed and thoroughly enjoyed throughout the day. Hee hee. Drunk.....far from, but feeling good.

Also can I mention we were able to play outside with the kids WITHOUT our coats! Yeah baby! Granted the summers are hot and intense, but I can handle this winter stuff without 20 gazillion feet of snow.

Also I need to throw out there our wonderfully awesome and dreadful visit with the Nygren's.......check this out! Yeah...I did that.

My Little God Man Is Growing

Our Mikah has been growing spiritually very fast the recent months. He's addicted to the Bible, always asking questions about God, and craves church on a daily basis. Well, about a week or so ago, he told his daddy and I that he finally figured out what the best gifts to give Jesus: his whole love or his whole life. Wow.....He's understanding what Christ wants. So with that being said, the next story won't be just all of a sudden. This little man asked me how he could become a christian.....a TRUE Christian. Honestly, he got the term christian from someone else, we normally don't throw that around here. Either way he was ready to give his life to Christ, and understood what that meant for himself and Jesus. He's been so excited ever since and is more concerned on how he acts when we talk him through behavior issues. Yes, and I cried.

wow its quiet in here

Scott and Mikah went out and about, and Asa and Kiara are here at home with me. Asa, I guess needed a nap because he's now passed out on the floor. Kiara is in the hallway playing pretend like Kiara always does. I have almost all of the dishes done, worked 5 hours, and made myself a huge amount of food for lunch as I started getting extremely loopy and desperate for nourishment. On top of that read the post below. I feel as thoug I've had a full day already, and I still have got to go to church tonight. My baby Asa is sick with the tummy flu and it seems as though he got it from his big sis Kiara, who both shared with Daddy. So Mikah and I are gonna have to build ourselves a higly guarded quarentine tent to put the sicko's in ;) that way we don't get sick. Crossing my fingers cause I need to have some lovely dreaded fellowship with my girl this week and it doesn't go with my plans anyways.

God Hungry But Not Starved

My Mikah is amazing. Yeah, of coursse I think this because he is my child, and I think all of my children are amazing. No I say this now because of how much love this guy has for God and how hungry he is for Him. He falls asleep with his bible story book in his face, he interrupts arguments between Kiara and I so he can bless us with individual prayer. He makes sure we pray EVERY night before we go to bed, because he trusts God to keep the bad dreams away. He watches a song cartoon about Jesus dying and being raised up again and gets choked up about then and even later describing it to his daddy. He reads his bible like its more important that air. I'm getting teary eyes just talking about it.

Girlness Drama

So we are pretty much past the tramatic threes in Kiara, but we're finding that this girl thrives on drama. She's a very sensitive individual and almost anything can set her off. She's also a very kind loving warm hearted person that loves to reach out to people. Kiara thrives to do everything Mikah can do, which we try to encourage with some exceptions, but she tends to freak out when she is unable to do the task.

I am absolutely amazed at how different our kids are from one another. Kiara definitely is unique in her own perfect way.

What kind of tree would you be?

So earlier today I just picked up my sketch pad and started drawing. Wasn't sure what yet, but knew I wanted to draw. I ended up starting to draw the kind of tree that would describe me through my eyes. As I started drawing the kids gathered around me and were amazed at all of the branches and the twirls they did. They pointed out how the branches were all different, and thought how cool it was that it had a hole where animals could live. I told them about my tree and how I thought it described me, and then I asked them what kind of tree would they be. This is homeschooling....it's art, self imaging and imagining, and its also a great way for them to get used to their hands and how they work, as well as with their brains.

So......what kind of tree would yours look like? Would it be dry, fruitful, branchless or branchful? Would it all be one color or many colors?

Nice Funky Weather

It got down right cold and icy yesterday, but come Monday it'll be back up tp 60 degrees! Yeah, that just rocks! I'm not a fan of eskimo weather, so this is a really nice treat for me. Yeah the summers here are horrid, but I can handle this. Unfortunately this is considered odd for Dallas, but that is okay by me.

My baby dreads

my asa babe

photo by mikah dante miller

photo by mikah dante miller

photo by kiara jasmyn miller

photo by mikah dante miller

photo by mikah dante miller

photo by mikah dante miller


photo by mikah dante miller

photo by mikah dante miller

Miller Hippie Momma

I'm home and dreaded.....fully dreaded! Pictures coming soon.

A New Kind of Moon

So I'm getting a snack ready in the kitchen while the kids are hnging out in the living room. As I come out I glance in the living room, when something catches my eye......you wanna know? Do you really??????? Yup, you do! It was Asa's naked bum! Not only was it it naked, it was sticking up in the air shaking back and forth while his head was to the floor and one leg in the air while he hummed, "La la la loo"

He gets it from his daddy's side.

Like Father Like Son

So everytime Scott reads at home he reads aloud. This is just a normal thing here. Well the night before last Mikah was in his room, and the main reason how I knew he stayed in bed was because he read to himself out loud, just like his daddy. How sweet is that. I must also mention a most grand accomplishment of Mikah's. He finished reading his bible story book in 2.5 days. This book has over 180 pages. That's just awesome.

Our First Thanksgiving Together

Thursday wasn't the very first time we all spent Thanksgiving together. Last year was Asa's first. No, but this year we had a lot of firsts, and it was marvelously grand!

+This is our first Thanksgiving in Texas
+Our first Thanksgiving at home with the little Miller bunch
+Our first Thanksgiving not having to be in the car for most of the day
+OOur first untraditional Thanksgiving Day meal plan (Veggie pizza & Burritos)
+Our first vegetarian Thanksgiving meal
+Our first time making homemade pizza (which was the best friggin' pizza I've ever had!)
+Our first time making Chipotle-mocked burritos at home
+Our first holiday together that actually FELT like a holiday


Yeah baby! It was that good, and even better.

The Gift Of Forgiveness

I received a much needed to hear letter from a member of my family that should have been close in relationship, but never has been. This was the person that has been very trying and difficult to forgive, but I have chosen to do that a while ago. This was first time I've been asked by that person for forgiveness. It was a confession I've never thought I would hear and I heard it. It humbled me in the right way too. There are reasons for not expecting this from this person. A very thick and hard shell has surrounded him/her for as long as I've known him/her. I always imagined if I ever had this moment that I would just turn my back and walk away.......but when I heard this, it was completely God moving me into the promise to forgive by opening my heart. I can't see this person physically for awhile, but this pushes me to make my letter more frequent.

I so didn't see this coming today.....

Restlessnessish stuff

Today I feel stuck......really stuck. I feel as if I can't do things, yet I dream of so much more than what we are doing now. I wish to do so much with my family, but I feel there's just not enough courage for it. I find myself a little mad about it, but then I realize I'm in a coveting mood, then my emotions flip from anger to depressed. I don't know which way to even pursue, and what's being led, and what's being dreamt. I'm sure it's all dreamt, but is it led also?????? Yeah no specifics, cause there's just too much to go through on it. I want to travel everywhere, experience everything, and grow with people. I want our family to do this together. Granted we are a mess and might be forever, but I don't want to feel stuck anymore. I want to go on "adventures" and walk totally on faith.....but when it comes to the ordeal of us doing it as a family, we all have to be willing. The ways of the world causes too much of a wall for that sometimes. I'm tired of dreaming.....I'm tired of all of the things that separate me from reality and puts me in this place I find myself today. I'm tired of this wave that just keeps coming back.



Update:

After some time on my knees with God and some heavy prayer I have found a sense of peace. Still many questions, but there's some peace to it finally. I still feel pushed towards something, but I feel I have some time to figure out what it is. It's something good and challenging........time will tell. Thanks for listening.

The darkness is leaving

This wave of depression is starting to end. I noticed it a couple o days ago. I'm very grateful for the time of it passing. And now I kind of feel stupid for it happening, but that's just part of the cycle, and soon I'll be Confident and ready to conquer the world.....well maybe not, but I know my kids always enjoy this part, because most of my energy is spent towards them. This time I need to change it up a little. I can keep in tune with my kids, but also make time for me, little bit by little bit. Managing my time is hard, but can be done. I just need some good habits and regularity in tasks and then all shall be good. Its not over yet, but I can finally see some light.

A Chart That can change the path of mankind

Yeah........okay, maybe not mankind, but the paths and mindset of my children. We've set up a positive actions chart for Mikah and Kiara, and so far it is working brilliantly. The kids get stickers for every good deed on the poster, and then after three stickers they can trade those for a little privelage. I can't believe I haven't done this before....its been on my mind to do it, but I always assumed the kids wouldn't get into it. Well they are diggin it and I'm diggin it. I may change it though. Right now it has very specific stuff up there that we've been having problems with, but I'm thinking about doing a kind of fruits of the spirit type thing so we can have God take hold of it for us as well it will be a great way of teaching and embedding upon these kids the great ways God wants us to live, not only for ourselves but for others as well.

My darkness

Here lately I've been in sinking mode. It comes and goes and its extremely difficult to fight off. Here letely I've been struggling with parenthood and wifehood. I suck at both of these and the realization is coming into clarity more and more. Its more struggling of how to to screw up the kids and my husband by my actions or unavailable actions. How to discipline for long term success and how to control my patience to be ever lasting. Yeah this to me seems unreal and not a plottable path. Absolutely impossible it seems, as well as never-ending.

Then I get stuck in my mode of dreams where I can escape with my family to anywhere and we can just learn how to be a family together.....and we can support our family on the road...or something. I'm tired of this struggle and tired of feeling like I've failed on so many levels. And I'm feeling depressed and very pissed off about it.

I'm ready for this wave to be done.

A bunch of sickos

Man, oh, man. This is quite the weekend. Everyone, but me, is sick and there's snot everywhere! Well, not everywhere, but with three sick kids it can get yucky gooey. My biggest chore????? Me not getting sick. I've been popping vitamin C like candy for prevention...let's just hope it works.

So tomorrow's trick or treat night. Can't say I'm looking forward to it much. Can't afford anything and don't have time to make it either....which is okay. I'm sure we can wing it.

So anyways, I think Scott and the fam needs to travel the country for a year and visit all of the churches we are in somewhat contact with and write a book about our journey. Yeah.....that would be fun and mighty interesting.....but okay dreams over and reality says we're broke......so let's move on, shall we?

I'm thinking I'm getting close to the end of my wave of darkness....at least I'm hoping. I guess we'll find out soon.

I've been officially blessed :)

So the Nygren's came up with a sneaky little plan to help me realize I can still be crafty and artsy even with my kids around. Unfortunately the boys of the house were all sick and couldn't go with us to Quiggly's Clayhouse. It was the perfect medicine for the waves that have been flooding through. It gave me a very nice break and was wonderful to see Kelly and Justin pre-baby arrival. I'm always in awe of first time parents pre-baby and once the baby arrives. I juggle three now and its definitely different. That first child you get the extra sweet one on one time. Its a very special time.

So anyways, Kiara just absolutely LOVED Christine at the clayhouse. I mean LOVED her. She same home that night all smiles. We haven't seen her that happy in a LONG time. Yeah, she's had fun, but this was definitely different. I can't wait to pick up my masterpiece. I'll put up a pic when it arrives. Thanks to the Nygren's for a wonderful time.

Now I need to load up on some serious vitamin C so these guys don't get me sick.....Here's to hoping!

Not sure where we are, but okay with moving forward

So Doxolgy was awesome, but I must admit, the camping part of it was the best. It was very freeing. I'm looking forward to actually owning our own tent and camping stuff to do this often with the kids. I got to meet some great people and hope to maintain some kinds of contact with them.

Our home time has been kind of rough with Mikah here lately. We aren't sure how to deal with certain behaviors and its been quite disturbing. Hopefully we can break these cycles soon or at least get a clue of what to do to maintain boundaries with a consistent method.

i found a part time seasonal job at a craft store. Its not what I expected it to be, but I am very grateful and thankful. The search for something else is still on though, sicne its not enough hours to cover what our needs are. Either way its a better situation than before.

I'm sewing once again. I have a couple of projects I'm getting ready for a craft fair that I'm hoping to sell there. That'll be very encouraging if I can actually sell some of them.

Asa's pushing through three molars at once and is being quite the tough guy about it. Every now and then he gets whiny and really fussy, but not much of a difference compared to pre-teething. He's becoming so aware of almost everything now.

Kiara's learning in a whole new way I never thought possible, but hey its the way she learns. She's learning how to write, spell, and read as she's learning how to recognize her ABC's . It's taking time and patience, but she's very willing to learn most of the time, so why not! I'm very curious as to how long it'll take her to learn how to read. She's already writing her name better and better each time and I can finally make out exactly what letters she's writing! Very neat stuff.